Normally, I will do anything to avoid WalMart. As in, I don’t think I’ve been in there for a year. But today, in the name of Christmas, I had to suck it up and go in there, because they have a Honey Baked Ham kiosk, and we have a gift card for Honey Baked Ham and a need for something to eat for Christmas dinner. So I bravely took my daughter with me, and despite some serious trepidation, off we went.
First we had to park. We drove up and down the vast parking lot, searching for anywhere to park. I wasn’t being choosy. Even a spot in the back would be fine. We were nearly smacked into by aggressive senior citizens seeking spots close to the building. There were bazillions of people milling through the crosswalks, so it was nearly impossible to progress to the next lane. We finally found a spot far, far to the back, and of course it started to rain. We walked a mile to the store and I was cursing my choice of footwear – boots with heels that looked very nice with my outfit but which felt not so good on such a hike.
We made it in the crowded doors and I began looking for the Honeybaked Ham kiosk. I couldn’t see it anywhere. I decided to go back and look for a Wii dance game I’d asked my husband for for Christmas – he told me to go get it myself and wrap it up. As soon as we got back to Electronics, my daughter began begging for Nintendo DS games, and Pokemon games and a new Nintendo DS3 and basically anything she could see within eyesight. It was annoying. She begged and tugged at my arm until I couldn’t even think. I told her to hush up and I got a kid’s version of the Wii dance game that came free with my version.
Off again we went to hunt Honeybaked Ham. We finally found the kiosk over by the produce – they had three people manning one little booth. They of course did not accept the gift card – those are only accepted by the real store. At least they took the coupons. I bought a boneless ham for Christmas dinner and a roast turkey for lunch the previous day.
Then we had to go stand in the checkout lane. And we stood, and we stood, and we stood. There were two girls in front of us who were so psyched about Christmas in the air that they were jumping up and down and bumping their chests into each other. At least I think that’s what they were excited about. I was holding two Honeybaked things and they were getting very heavy. My daughter did not want to help and hold the bag from Electronics.
Next we set off to Publix – parking lot, same scene. Awful. We finally found a spot and went in with our immense list. Little Bit threw a fit because she wanted a cart with a car on it – she is wayyyyy too big for those and I told her so. So she pouted and climbed into the cart and sat where I needed to put my groceries. The only thing that saved me was that she saw my Kindle and wanted to read a story on that. So I gave that to her and was allowed to get my groceries unmolested. Except for all the people trying to run me over. They were out of several things I needed. I had to call Mom and ask her to bring currants, because they didn’t have any.
The whole thing, needless to say, put me in a vile mood. I am in a vile mood right now. I feel a crash as hard as if the holidays were already over. Letdown like they are already gone. My husband managed to rip into the new lunch meat and sliced cheese that I had gotten for Christmas Eve lunch with the folks, and gave them to the babysitter instead, so now I will have used cheese and meat to offer when they come. He didn’t even think to ask. And he has burned up my new Christmas candle before Christmas is even here. I spent the day cleaning the house and it doesn’t even look like any of it was cleaned at all. And I’m on this stupid diet and I’ve missed eating all the good Christmas things and still have barely lost five pounds. I have about forty to go. And my daughter messed up the guest room bed by climbing on it even though I told her to leave it alone because I had fixed it up for my parents.
I’m about to go… batshit. And the day after Christmas I have to return to work, to a clinic that is so full that it will run until one o’clock and restart at one fifteen. And I am on call five days in a row for New Years. I am only getting one gift for Christmas. And I wrapped that myself, so it is hardly a surprise. So I am having one big old feeling sorry for myself fest right now. And I can’t get this album to play the songs in order on this stupid computer. I can only hope things will get better tomorrow when the folks get here, but I think I will just feel put upon and irritable to have to do all the cooking and dishwashing that goes in when you have people over for the holidays. So Merry f’ing Christmas. And a Happy damn New Year.